Timidity.

I am a decently shy and reserved individual. Oftentimes, it takes me a great deal of time to warm up and feel comfortable around particular individuals. This does not define all that I am or can be in Christ. What you or I see in me is irrelevant. It simply does not matter because His Word tell me otherwise. In the past, my insecurities have occasionally totally consumed and defined me as a person. My self-doubt and pity has tried to destroy me. Self-image gets the best of me at times. It tells me that I am no good and worthless. Surrounded on every side by fierce warriors and aggressive militant tyrants.

Brought to a place of complete and utter brokenness, I cling fervently to the one thing that I know, without a shadow of doubt, is able to win this battle. When these belligerent combatants attempt to drag me down and tell me who and what I am, I have a weapon that is alive, active, and sharper than any double-edged sword. Yes, I am able to enter the throne room of grace with confidence. I have a great High Priest who has been tempted in every way, just as I am, yet was without sin.

My God in heaven did not give me a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of love, power, and self-discipline (2 Timothy 1.7). Therefore, I press on, fervently, and daily choose to fight the good fight. Everyday I wake up fully assured of the fact that I am a new creation in Christ. My past is behind me. With boldness and courage I will be victorious over each attack of the evil one. That is really all there is to it. So, just watch out because I am for serious. The Spirit that lives in me is alive and well. He is ready to burst forth and consume every ounce of my being. And for that, I have no apologies.

Timidity is no longer part of my vocabulary.

why do i like coffee?

I like coffee because it smells so good. It is such a comfortable smell. I also like the taste of coffee. It tastes so good. Mostly, I like it when it is hot, but sometimes I drink it cold (like in the summer and such).

Sometimes when I am at my in-laws house I drink it with Peppermint Mocha flavored creamer. I only do this over there though. It tastes good, but is definitely more something that is for an occasional treat.

Mostly I drink my coffee black. I even like nasty coffee from nasty restaurants. I am not sure why. Or from the gas station as well. I used to drink gas station cappuccinos sometimes, but they really hurt my throat - which is bad. It took me like 5 tries to spell throat. I'm not sure why. I just get like that sometimes about random words.

I like coffee shops/houses/bars a lot. I am sometimes an enormous snob when it comes to these though. It can be bad. I then have to remind myself to knock it off. Atmosphere is key. Also, so is consistency. If you got atmosphere and consistency, then shoo you got it going on. This is a rare find, unfortunately.